Update: Every once in a while, I catch myself in such a badly written post, I have to do some editing. While I would not pronounce this perfect, it is more readable.
This blog is supposed to be about needing a vacation, but it digressed into something else, which I think needs to be said. And hopefully, it will help you understand someone in your life that suffers from Chronic Illness.
Warning Before Reading This Blog PostThe hot topic of suicide is mentioned in this blog post. I do not approve of suicide, nor am I being judgmental toward anyone who has ever had the thought or tried the act of suicide. These are my personal thoughts, and I am in no way responsible for anything you or a loved one might do. I have never, nor do I ever want to do such a thing. But the word is in here more than once, and I want you to know; just in case it is a word that will set off anxiety or anything else in your life.
What I Need Is ... a vacation
is my mantra for the summer.
|Wish I was there right now, but I'm here at home.|
This picture was taken at Amelia Island, a few years ago.
and I'm not speaking of the kind of fatigue fairly healthy people have.
kind of like having influenza all the time and you can never
quite get over the aches and low, draggy feeling.
And that is only part of the symptoms
FM - CFS patients deal with.
It is by God's Grace and Mercy, I am not totally mentally disabled
by the frustration of it all. I had been in pain for 30 years or
more before I ever knew I had syndromes.
I am being honest and politically incorrect here, because I care.
but the next part has relevance in getting to my main points.
By the way, for all my dear friends who would quote
I know He guards my heart and my mind.
The Holy Spirit has spoken to me when my heart was broken.
Not in an audible voice, so anyone could hear it, but He has spoken
to me when I least expected it and I am thankful.
there is an anxiety caused by the broken brain and nerves,
from living an active physical life in my more mature years.
Unfortunately, it caught me earlier than I could have possibly expected.
But, I had fought it, because I knew it was in my genes.
People get sick anyway. Oh darn!
Back to the eye appointment...
for a ME/CFS - Fibromyalgia patient to go through
What I Wanted to Do after the Eye Appointment
I didn't look at flowers to plant or go any place,
But, it was also God's gift to her.
which is comforting.
but ended up with more frustration -- due to my own mistaken idea my doctor's office had called in my colonoscopy prep.
but there is an Enemy out there,
Should you not believe in the supernatural,
I'm sorry, because it is there.
God is real and so is the Enemy and His cohorts.
I really don't like saying the name. Read C.S. Lewis and the Bible,
then you will know what I am talking about.
I would much rather talk about God.
Anyway, as I drove home,
This was a simple run-down of my thoughts.
I can't do anything. I could run into one of those trees.
and, God would not like it.
I had a picture of the air bag inflating, as well as
being laid up in a hospital in pain.
Nope. I'm not going to run off the road.
It would not be fair to my family.
That was the gist of my thoughts.
Even if you don't ever do it,
I know that memory can come back years later in living color,
because I have experienced it.
A word to you who have had
the suicidal thought go through your mind...
But I think
your family's forgiveness,
Done. Gone. Move on.
is there really any family that is perfectly functional?
If that is not possible for whatever reason;
I am not talking about withdrawing one's love, but you cannot live someone else's life. You cannot force someone else to change.
That is what I mean by moving on.
That is why it is so good to have a counselor to talk to,
because it can help you to get through things that are devastating to you mentally and emotionally.
understanding and kind reactions to all of this.
for a hot fudge sundae.