Wednesday, February 13, 2013

When Up Is Down, and Down Is Up

When one has Fibromyalgia and CFS/ME, we sometimes have those days that not only do our brains work slower, we feel out and out foggy.  This afternoon, I am sitting here with my ears ringing about as loudly as the television;  and I am wondering what will happen if I go out to the kitchen to do some work in there.  Will I have to stop, because I only have enough energy to wash one or two bowls?  My inclination is to stay in my recliner covered up with blankets.  It's not that cold today, but I'm cold;  and, it feels cozy where I am right now.  I think that is probably as good as it is going to get today.

Did I mention my fingers are numb and tingly too?

Do you ever have days like this, and do you wonder where they come from?  Do you wonder about symptoms that come and go, or symptoms that are magnified sometimes, but not every day?  For instance, my ears do not usually ring this loudly:  right now, I can only describe the sound as very, very loud crickets or ocean without the break between waves.  When I have no other sound in a room, I sometimes hear a light cricket sound;  however, now, the sound is blaring loudly.  

All these symptoms are also described by other fibromyalgia patients. Sometimes we wonder what makes our symptoms kick in.  Well, today, I have an inkling I know what is making my day slow and weird.  I woke up early this morning,  and I had such bad excess acid, that I could not keep it down.  The pain made me feel like I was going to pass out, and I went into a cold sweat.  I had to lie down just in case.  If I hadn't known that I ate something that could give me excess acid before I went to bed, I would have been more concerned.  You see, I am no stranger to passing out:  I have done it ever since I was 11 or 12 years old.  However, it does give me pause, so I will go to my doctor.  

Ladies, have you ever thought you wouldn't know if you were having a heart attack, because of the fibromyalgia.  I've had stress tests twice, because I got esophageal spasms.  I don't get them very often, but the first one made me think I was having a heart attack. The spasm was so painful, I passed out.    Today, I haven't had an esophageal spasm but my chest wall is one big burning ache.  Right now, my sternum is sore without even touching it, so I have an ice pack on it.  

The reason I am going over all these symptoms is because they are fresh in my mind, not because I want sympathy.  

Dear Ones, I know how frustrating it can be.  Sometimes, weird is the only thing we can think to describe the way we feel. It feels a little bit like being Alice in Wonderland:  you don't know whether up is down, or down is up.  

   I hope you all are having a good day.
created by me for you

Light hugs to you,


For more information on Fibromyalgia Symptoms, click here:  The Monster List of Fibromyalgia Symptoms  by Adrienne Dellwo.


  1. Dear Deborah, I am so sorry to hear how poorly you feel today. Those see-saw symptoms and emotions are scarily familiar to me too. The tinnitus sensations come on strong when I take too many NSAIDs or Amitriptyline. When a body just longs for peace and rest, such nuisances make it terribly elusive. Sometimes having other noise around (music we like to listen to etc) can help temporarily mask the intrusive sounds.
    It may be a time to pay heed to what our bodies are saying to us and take the pathway of peace as far as possible in all areas.
    Sending sympathy, love, prayers and gentle hugs :) xx


It's always lovely hearing from you. xoxo, Deborah