Saturday, October 6, 2012
None of my steps forward have been easy for me, and sometimes, I find that I still occasionally have problems with agoraphobia, especially if I am very fatigued. Actually, it reminds me of the chicken and the egg question – which came first?
I wonder how many fibromyalgia patients have found they have changed from loving getting out of the house and being around people, to wanting to stay home. Because I have had bouts of anxiety this week, I almost stayed home from going to the state park today, which I know was good for me, my husband, and the dog. The kind of anxiety I speak of is not the same as worrying about something. It hits even when I am not worried about anything. Maybe, the flare-up I have had is doing something to my hormones. Our bodies are so complicated with the various chemical processes that are involved in keeping us running properly.
Therefore, I ignored the I wanna stay curled up in my chair attitude, and I said, “OK. I’m ready go to the park.” FlyLady would approve: Saturday is family day in FlyLadydom.
Speaking of FlyLady, I did do most of Day 8. But I still have to shine the sink after supper and put out my clothes for tomorrow. And I’d better put the Bible I carry to church and my purse together too: I have this bad habit of hunting for things, when I need to get out the door. The thing I am really procrastinating on is giving myself a pedicure. I love the way a fresh pedicure, with pretty nail polish looks , but I resist doing it like the plague.
If I am sounding negative, tell me. I really am trying to be honest. I think writing a blog and making it sound like I have things perfectly together would negate the purpose of this blog.
Oh dear! It is 7 PM my time, and all I want to do is close my eyes. Maybe, I should walk in the park more often. You all have sweet dreams tonight. Don’t give up on our FlyLady /Habit Project, and don’t get frustrated with yourself if you don’t do things perfectly.